Counting my blessings and naming them one by one...

Usually I am one who plans my blog posts out for days and I think about the topic a little before I write about it, but today is different. I had an overwhelming feeling of joy on multiple occasions today as I realized how truly blessed I am. Sometimes I feel like I am bragging when I talk about how blessed my life is but today bragging or not I am going to share because I think that is what Heavenly Father would like me to do. So here I am counting my blessing and naming them one by one...
I woke this morning to a ragging head ache and to a crying baby. Two things that do no mix and make for a cranky mom but here is where blessing #1 comes in he goes by Alex and he is the most amazing husband anyone could ask for. Even though it was my turn to get up with Owen my sweet husband got up with the little man so that I could sleep even though he had to work early. As the day progressed my head ache did not go away and little boy would not nap but wanted to desperately. So I strapped him in his car seat and to the car we went me in a huff being tired and ornery. As I drove blessings #2 and #3 came into play. Small as this may be today I felt blessed for the ability I have to go to McDonalds and buy a coke for my ragging head and blessing 3 the beautiful car that I have that allows me to go to McDonalds. Stupid I know but today I am so grateful for both. As I came home I began to stress about the fact that my house is a mess and I have no energy to clean or make dinner. But as this thought came into my head I realized how blessed I am to have a home and that today it's ok if it's a little messy. So blessing #4 Blessed to have a home clean or dirty. I walked upstairs and got on my computer while talking to a friend blessing #5 flooded over me with more emotion then I expected. His name is Owen and he is my most priced possession. It brought me to tears thinking about how blessed I am to be his mom, as I looked at my sweet boy finally sound asleep I felt more love for this little boy then I ever have before. I don't know why it hit me so strong today but I am so blessed to have him in my life. As I thought about my love for him blessing #6 and probably my most favorite blessing of the day came to my mind. I thought about how blessed I am to be able to spend every minute of everyday with him. So many moms have to leave their children at some point during the day for work and I am lucky enough to not miss one minute of my little squishes day and that is the best blessing any mom could ask for. A day that started as a struggle because of a sleepy, grumpy mom turned into a day that the Lord decided to help me turn around by pointing out my greatest blessings. I am so grateful for the reality check. So here is a recap of the top six things I am grateful for today!



 

#1 Alex Bilodeau

#2 Diet Coke

#3 My Car

#4 My house

#5 My son Owen

#6 Staying home with my son

 

 

 

Perfectly Imperfect!

As many of you other bloggers out there do, I write my blog as somewhat of a journal more for myself then anyone else. Especially in the last couple months there have been so many moments I never want to forget. Hence the reason I began writing again. So some of my posts might be long and time consuming to read but like I said this is my life and my moments and I want to remember them in detail. So if you read the whole post thank you but if not I do not blame you. Also I usually write about my son and my adventures as a mom but today is not about that, today's post is about a subject that has come to the forefront of my mind this week.

Perfectly Imperfect

For those of you that know me well, you know that I do not like fake people and I myself am not fake. I do not believe in sugar coating things. That is not real life and I believe in living and loving real life in all it beauty and ugliness. That ugliness tends to make us better people. That being said I want to clarify myself. There is a difference in not being fake and being rude. I do not believe in going around being rude to people. There is a difference but that is a different post entirely.
I had an experience this week that has made me consider my own life and the way I feel about it. This experience had to do with people that try and make their lives seem perfect and are uncomfortable or even awkward when it comes to talking about things that happen in real life. When you cannot talk about loss, sadness, stress or grief without feeling uncomfortable and awkward I find that strange, shallow and yes fake. This is not to say that you should go around expressing your deepest grief and stress with the common stranger and expecting them to care but one should be allowed to discuss their real life situations with their social circle. It makes me sad that people find shame is this. Everyone has an imperfect life and being able to share and have compassion for one another's struggles is where true love and friendship begin. You really learn to love and understand someone when you move passed the shallow conversation and into their real life and that is why I am going to share with you somethings that make me perfectly imperfect.
1. I do not breast feed my son.
2. My house has at least one room that is always messy.
3. I almost never have dinner ready when Alex gets home.
4. I have anxiety issues. ( I get anxiety over everything on this list.)
5. Sometimes when my son screams I have to get him comfortable and walk away.
6. There are days I don't get out of my pajamas.
7. Sometimes I'm too tired to brush my teeth.
8. I've been fired.
9. I don't have perfect grades.
10. I really like fast food.
There is a reason I have shared these things with you. It it my hope that there is something on my list that is on your list as well, and this will bring us a little closer and maybe we will be little bit more comfortable sharing our real lives. Nothing on this list makes me a bad person, wife or mother. It makes me human just like everyone else. I challenge anyone reading this to be a little more comfortable in their own skin and share something with me that makes you or your life perfectly imperfect.

We are happy being perfectly imperfect!

* This post is not meant to be negative and is not directed to anyone in particular. Just written as food for thought.

Newborns/Family Pictures

I am so lucky to have such talented people in my life! I have two amazing photographers take pictures for me in the last couple weeks and I love all the pictures. KC Photography (Kyra Cummings) did Owens newborn pictures and she did an awesome job even though Owen was a little stinker the whole time! He was not a big fan of having his pictures taken and would not fall asleep like we wanted him to, but as soon as we left he slept for pretty much the rest of the day. He is such a stinker. Kyra has been one of my good friends since 2nd grade and it is so fun so see how much our lives have changed. It is so strange that we have kids of our own now. Radiance Photography (Rachel Humphreys) did our family pictures. We have a fun connection with Rachel too. Alex and her husband Kellen have been friends for a long time as well and played soccer together in high school. It is so fun to see our friends all grown up and having kids. Thank you again to both of my amazing photographers! WE LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

KC Photography

Little Squish

One of my favorites!

Yawn!

Owen!

Radiance Photography

Smiles!

Daddy and Owen